My lil’ brain is still riding on a giddy endorphin high even if on the surface things ’round here pretty much aren’t all that different from the way they’ve been these last few wonderful years between Carolyn and I.
She’s the same… I’m the same… but each and every moment that I suddenly notice the feeling of the ring on my finger I’m struck with an immediate rush of hot flushing warmth and I can, for the first time, truly understand the phrase “blushing bride”. Yes indeed. That’s me alright… And my sweet Carolyn. She’s been the happiest and most unashamedly affectionate and “girlish” that I’ve ever seen her be these last few days. It’s the final step for her, I think, to make her relaxed, happy, and finally able to just be her wonderful self for the whole world to see after years and years of hiding it all away, even from me.
But… no more of that. It’s full steam ahead for us and I expect things will settle into that comfortable routine all married couples eventually find in their life together. But not right now… right now the delicious feeling of “Happy” has me in it’s clutches and feeling all silly, lovey, and goofy… and by heck I’m hanging on to that for a while. ❤
So for all the ridiculously sentimental details of our wedding ceremony and such all you have to do is “Read On” Gentle Visitors and let this silly lady ramble on… 😉
Yep. It’s a done deal. Carolyn and I took that big scary step together all official and legal this last Monday at our local courthouse. After all our years together already, it was something I figured wouldn’t be all that big a deal…. I mean how emotional could what amounted to a cold and impersonal signing of a legal contract really be? Boy… was I wrong.
It was a small thing really, with only my Mom and Dad and Sam as witnesses. The whole thing took maybe 20 minutes and wasn’t the least bit special. Not at all. It wasn’t until we left that it really hit me. I was actually married. I’m really someones wife. Carolyn’s wife.
As we came down the front steps at the courthouse, she took my hand. Hers was trembling just ever so slightly. Even now I remember it so darn clearly. I turned to look at her, and she had that silly, crooked smile on her face that she always gets when she’s fighting to hold her composure and be oh so cool, calm, and collected. That’s when it first hit me. Hard. We were really married. My vision narrowed and I got super light headed. Seriously!! Thank goodness she was right beside me, because otherwise I probably would have fainted dead away and took a serious tumble down the stairs. Luckily Carolyn sensed me starting to fade and stepped in close to keep me vertical. I think she was happy just for the excuse to wrap her arms around me and keep herself from being the first one to lose it… 🙂
She saved that for later, when we were alone, once Mom and Dad went back to their hotel room for the night. We spent the early evening on the couch watching movies, but Carolyn was so giddy and affectionate with her playful teasing that it didn’t take long for us to totally lose interest in all of that and take some sweet time for… **ahem**… “other things”. Terribly sweet teasingly tender “things” that demonstrated in no uncertain terms just how happy my loving wife was with being a newlywed. 🙂
Anyway, by the time Wednesday rolled around I was certainly ready to put the cherry on top with our own personal celebration for family and friends. We lucked out weather wise, and although the day started all cool, dreary, and damp, by the time we drove down to Blue Mountain Lake the sun had warmed things up, and although the forecast kept threatening rain, we actually got a nice fairly sunny window of opportunity to do things outside just like we wanted. (OK Rain… you’re off the hook… I’ll remember this next time I’m tempted to bitch you out… 😉 ) Now… since we had the notion of surprising each other with our individual wedding trousseau’s, we had to drive down separately, me with Sam and my Mom and Dad, and Carolyn in her own car planning to meet up with Sandra at their place before going on to the wedding site. Carolyn had the longest trip, so she left early, way before sunrise to give her enough time to get to Sandra’s and get her things together to meet us. Now for me… I had already gotten together my gown, my veil, and my headpiece… “Something new”… but you still need “Something borrowed…” so Sam lent me the prettiest silver earrings she had that she always said would look great on me, and my Mom had “Something old…” all covered too. She lent me the strand of pearls she had worn to her very own wedding to my Dad… along with a kiss and a hug and her fondest wishes that I have as long and loving a marriage as she’s had. Awwww, Mom!! I can’t believe I was soooo foolishly afraid to tell her about us for so long. She’s just been such a wonderfully supportive mother…. and I’m blessed to have her as mine. So then…. what about “Something blue…” ? Why for that, both Carolyn and I had Blue Mountain Lake… and the bluest sky you could imagine as the ceiling of our own personal chapel in the woods. Perfect!!
We showed up in plenty of time for our respective “minders” to lead each of us to our little cozy waiting areas so we could put the final touches on things before we made our entrance. Yes… we had Sam’s boombox and a CD with the wedding march to set the mood, another of our lil’ nods to Tradition. Once we were both ready, she had Maddie start the music and with a deep breath, our Maids of Honor lead both of us in.
Thank goodness we had them to do that, as it was I nearly tripped on my way to the clearing. Still, once I felt Carolyn’s hand in mine, I knew we were as ready as we could ever possibly be. They removed the blindfolds and I honestly couldn’t believe how absolutely beautiful she was… there in the warm sunshine, her blonde hair all done up in a gorgeous braided bun with the most adorable flower crown atop it and a softly translucent veil pulled back over it all. It just took my breath away. Mind you… I wasn’t the only one, Carolyn took one look at me and her face just lit up with happiness. We hugged and bowed to the guests and then it was Carolyn’s turn to recite her vows. (Since she asked me to marry her, we figured it was only fair for her to go first…. See… easy to work out those pesky details, eh?)
“My dearest Miyuki, you’ve always been my closest friend, my one secret dream, and now you’ve chosen to share with me that dream and be my most precious wife. I’ve loved you for what seems like forever and I promise you I always will, with all my heart, and all my soul, till the end of time. I pledge myself and all that I have to making certain you always feel that love in both good times and bad and know that to me you will always be my most cherished kitten….”
By now I was so touched that I wasn’t certain I’d even manage my own vows, but somehow I actually pulled them off without a flub. “Sweetest Carolyn, I know that I can be confused at times about us, our relationship, and what our being together should be, but through it all I have always known one thing, clearly and without a doubt. I… love.. you. As much as I always feel with all my heart that you love me, and I want you to know that with you I am happier than I can ever remember or ever hope to be. You are my Soulmate… my best friend… and my most tender lover. Now and always. You are better than any dream could ever be… you are my Reality. I pledge to you that from this day forward, I will always be there, your wife through all that comes to us, and happy to share Forever right by your side.”
Adam brought us our rings then, and as we each slid them on the others finger, we kissed…. mostly to keep everybody from seeing how incredibly close to tears we both were. Then that was that… and we were married for real and truly. By our own rules and by our own choice, just the way it ought to be. 🙂
There was cheering and congratulations and we cracked a couple of bottles of champagne to toast the moment, but with some low clouds moving in, we cut things short and headed back to the cars to go off to the reception. There was a nice dinner and some dancing and and afternoon of fun….. and… one more surprise for lil’ ol me. Carolyn… the sneak… had conspired with both Sandra and Sam to pull one more trick on me. While I wasn’t paying attention, distracted by Mom and Dad, Carolyn got the DJ to play a special song just for me so she could repay me for my lip-synch anniversary performance I gave her a while back.
She’d been practicing for quite some time over the last month or so, and actually found a song I really like by Savage Garden, covered by the euro pop singer Cascada. Her performance was amazing… up in front of everybody and just especially for me. Carolyn says it captured all the feelings she’s always had for me better than any other song she’s ever heard. OMG…. I absolutely loved hearing it… and having her perform for me… My goodness. We’ve been together for so darn long…. and it still feels like our love is shiny and sparkling and brand new. I hope we never lose this strong, silly, romantic feeling. That I want to last a long, long time…. 🙂
Well. That just about covers all the excitement. We’re back home now, and my Mom and Dad have left for California, but we’ve got an invitation to pop out to visit soon. Maybe that’ll be our Honeymoon trip…. a long leisurely train ride out to the West coast. Right now, we’re both too darn busy to take more time off from work, but by goodness we deserve a Honeymoon so like as not we’ll try to manage that by Summer’s end.
I’ll leave you all now Gentle Visitors, and hopefully I’ll get some time for more posting and reviews once the end of the month rolls around and the restaurant quiets down a bit. Till then, I’ll end this with Carolyn’s song to me…. Savage Garden’s “Truly, Madly, Deeply” as covered by Cascada. 🙂