Finally… Oh yeah…. it’s been a waaaay long time since I’ve posted at the ol’ Litterbox, almost a new record, but that’s just how the month of May usually is for this lil’ Catgirl. I’ve been hard at it at work plowing through all the last minute stuff that the college graduations always pile on us here at the restaurant… catering… in house special parties… and of course the “Bataan Death March re-enactment” that is the day of the ceremonies themselves. As always… we lost a couple of our seasonal workers right at the beginning of this crunch time, so there’s been extra hours and extra shifts aplenty for me while I scramble to see it all gets done. Never let anyone tell you being the boss is the easy job…. 😉
What with all that and my recent personal dramas of late, I’ve had a grand total of just 2 days off in the last 20 where I didn’t have to spend some measure of time at work. Somehow, however… they never seem to be complete days off. “Life” has a way of finding stuff that just can’t be put off till later. Sigh…
The one nice thing about May… and my personal favorite… has to be the way everything finally greens up and tells me the world is coming back to life. That and the arrival of the Apple Blossoms…. they always say, “Hang in there Miyuki… the busy time is almost over!!”
Yes…. by the middle of May I need that reassurance… I really do.
So then… you well may wonder what else has been going on of late, o’ Gentle Visitors? Well let’s get right to that… 😉
It’s a Monday…. post graduation for the last of our local schools and in that aftermath I can tell you, this morning as I sit at the computer I am one bone tired and totally sore lady. But… outside my window in the courtyard the crab apple trees are in full bloom…. covered with a mass of fluffy white beauty… and my spirits always rise at the sight of them. 🙂
I’m not aware of just who it was who decided to plant these trees all around my lil’ town… they’ve been here long before I ever arrived here years ago for college, but in my opinion… he was a certifiable genius. The wild crab apple is native to this part of the eastern US but none of the other towns and villages around here have anywhere near the sheer number of them that we have. Some of the locals curse that luck…. as it won’t be long before the streets and parks are littered with those tiny apples rotting away in the sun and drawing crows, squirrels, skunks, and raccoons to gorge themselves on the fermenting fruit and then stagger around like drunken college boys at a fraternity kegger. The public works people will have their work cut out for them dealing with that for sure… but for now… the trees are so damn pretty they make one think you live in a fairytale. I, for one, wouldn’t give that feeling up for anything.
I need that boost. This year more than most and I’ll take every bit of relaxing beauty I can get.
So… along with all the graduation stuff, we also just went through “Mother’s Day” too. Oh yeah… not the best Holiday to share with your sweetheart when she’s not speaking to her mom, I can tell you that. Usually our Tradition was to each give our mom’s a phone call on that day to wish them well and let them know we miss them, living so far away and such, but this time out that wasn’t going to be the case. It’s just too damn soon after their big blowup over us for that to happen. Still… Carolyn loves her Mom. She really does. Not talking to her doesn’t change that… it just makes things all weird and strange. Worse… it also fell on one of the weekends I was tied up at the restaurant buried under with reservations for post ceremony dinner parties and all that mayhem so there was no way for me to be there for her in any significant way the entire weekend. She tried not to let it push her back into the depression she’d been in but it definitely knocked her down a rung or two on the ladder she’s been climbing to get out of that mood of late. Crap….
Now me… I took advantage of that absence from the apartment to make my own call home to Mom from the restaurant while on a brief break from the action. No sense making Carolyn feel even worse by reminding her I still have a Mom to talk to while she’s estranged from her own.
Ummmm… not that that conversation was easy mind you. I’d already spoken to Mom a few weeks back and let her know I was planning a visit soon… and that I had something important to tell them and someone I wanted them to meet. I mean.. no way did I want to blindside them with my own “coming out”… but at the same time I also didn’t want to do it over the phone or give them any details till we are all face to face. Sounds good right? In retrospect, perhaps not so much…
Mom thinks I’m engaged. Or getting married… or something of the sort. Ahhh… and she’s bubbling apart at the seams with speculative curiosity over it all. Crap… crap… crap. Not at all what I wanted her and Dad to think. Mind you… it’s a perfectly sensible thing to believe… and stupid lil’ me was too damn worked up to actually think of that when I first told them we were coming. Auuuggghh!!
So I spent much of my short call deflecting Mom’s curious interrogation. Sigh… at least she doesn’t think I’m pregnant or something… thank goodness. I soooo darn hope this doesn’t make my big reveal worse once it does happen. I want them to be happy for me… and more than anything else in the world, I soooo want them to like Carolyn. Please let them like her…
But that’s still a big unknown. Thank goodness the Apple Blossoms are here…. don’t know what I’d do without them to calm me down and remind me that the world is coming alive again and no matter what… “Life” moves on.
So… now that my personal time is opening up, the big question for all my Gentle Visitors has to be, “So Neko? Are there like gonna be some more Reviews anytime soon?”
Well… the answer there is yes. I’ve one for Joko Anwar’s latest “Modus Anomali” in draft form right now… (Mind you… it’s been in draft form since the end of last month but it’s coming, I promise…). After that, I’ve also got plenty of new films that have been tricking in from the far parts of the world that I’ll be watching as my evenings permit. The Norwegian period action film “Flukt”… a Hindi horror one called “3G”. The Swedish woodspirit film “Thale”. Ahhh…. and once it does actually arrive from my pre-order, the Korean blockbuster disaster film “The Tower”, which will be another of my collaborative reviews with blogging friend Stephen aka “Elpeevio” over at “Things Fall Apart”. Throw in a couple of Malay and Indonesian ones that make their way into the DVD player and we ought to be back to speed ’round these parts at last. At least that’s the plan….. (But we all know how that usually works for me, eh? ;))
Well…. that’s about it for this time out. Hopefully Spring has also “sprung” in your neck of the woods as well, and this wee Catgirl hopes it’s as welcome a time for you as it is for me and until next time I leave you with a lil’ music video Carolyn sent me from work the other day to tell me she’s still right there with me and still looking forward to the time we finally get that big reward for all these trials and tribulations in our crazy lives…. Bonnie Somerville’s “Winding Road”.