Sigh… Winter is finally fading away at last in your Favorite Catgirl’s neck of the woods. How do I know? Well… other places get their own seasonal signals to herald the coming of Spring, the Sparrows return to Capistrano…. the cherry blossoms bloom in Kyoto… the monarch butterflies leave sunny Mexico to return to their homes in Canada like a beautiful orange cloud of fairy magic… and well…. yours truly gets the annual wonder of wonders that is the “Miracle of Slush”…..
You’ve probably noticed by my continued absence of late that my Seasonal Blahs still have me in the dreaded Mongolian Headlock of Death. Sorry all…. I’ve really so wanted to be more active, perky and fun, but I honestly just haven’t had it in me of late.
Right now… outside my window the snow that has been piling up for months is in that nasty process of turning to wet slushy crap, with all the “magic” of Frosty the Snowman being hit by a perfectly delivered napalm strike. Add in the mud, and it’s like my whole world is covered with all the worlds leftover chocolate snow cones. But nowhere near as tasty…. Sigh…. but that’s Spring hereabouts.
In the middle of all this yucky wintery “afterbirth” it occurs to me that along with not really keepin’ up on my Reviews of late, I also haven’t done any Diary posts since… well… waaaaaaaay back before Valentines Day. Well…. Then it’s high time I did somethin’ about that. 😉
So if you’ve wondered about the boring personal life of a certain lazy Catgirl, let’s get to it and by all means, “Read On”!!
Mmmmm. Yes…. Valentines Day. Now I’ve been meaning to dish on this, but I’d been waiting to see how things worked out first… but with recent developments, I guess now is as good a time as any to fill all my Gentle Visitors in on my experience this time out…. And, much as it’s become these last few years, it again turned out to be an important day for lil’ ol’ me. Not just a romantic holiday for all lovers in love, but also this year it marks Carolyn’s and my 5th anniversary together as a “couple” instead of just BFF’s. Whew…. Still can’t believe it’s been that long… and that we’re still so darn happy together ♥ ♥!!
This year we didn’t go all crazy though. We’d spent altogether too darn much on each other for Christmas…. and as always, my sweet devoted Carolyn really went over the top for my birthday, so that it didn’t seem right to splurge away even more money to celebrate something we knew we’d have just as much enjoyment out of by keeping things quiet and personal… selfishly making the day be just for the two of us.
As it fell on a Thursday this year, we both should have been working that day…. but both Carolyn and I “called in sick” that morning and played hooky. (Not that it really fooled anyone…. especially when we’d both made arrangements to see that things got properly covered at our respective jobs…. Both of us, just too darn responsible and grown-up after-all… Hehehehe!!)
Mind you… all cuddled close together with soft morning sunlight peeping through the curtains, the romantic possibilities of that quiet serenity did have both of us a bit flushed and running a temperature…. so naturally the only safe and prudent thing to do was linger in bed for an hour or so. Just to be sure…. Even if resting wasn’t exactly what either of us had in mind… 😉
When we finally did get up, the rest of our day was basically spent lazing around the apartment, me in my flannel PJ’s and Carolyn in her workout sweats sipping coffee, nibbling on cookies, and watchin’ old movies on TV. I think Ting Ting was confused as to how exactly the Weekend had snuck up again so early, but in her kitty-cat way just went with it all. Gotta love the “Zen of the Kitty”…
Yes… and lots more flirting and snuggling throughout the day whenever the crazy mood struck us… maybe even a wee bit too much of that, as eventually it led to Carolyn making the impulsive decision to tell her Mom and Dad all about us. Ohhh, crap….
“Seriously Miyu…. I’m really going to do it.”, she blurted out while I was straddling her lap on the couch so we could be face to face while we kissed. “They need to know…. about you and me…. and how this is what I really want for the rest of my life. I’m just so tired of hiding it all… and I want to show you just how much I never want to leave you… ever.”
Now while that was about the sweetest promise Carolyn could ever make, I have to say it scared me absolutely silly with a flash of almost painful panic. This was most assuredly not the best decision to be made on the spur of the moment in an instant of blissful romantic impulse. Especially since I’ve already actually met Carolyn’s parents before… her Mom in particular.
It was years and years ago… back when we were roommates in college. I ended up going home with her for mid-winter break our freshman semester because the dorms closed and a trip for me all the way back to California was waaaay out of the question at the time. (Poor starving college student with limited cash…. you all know the drill… 😉 ) Carolyn had assured me that staying at her home was fine and so off we went. I’m guessing she neglected to OK that with Mom first though….
Not that I was made to feel unwelcome mind you upon arrival…. but let’s just say that Carolyn’s Mom is one of those people that likes to feel that everything in her life is…. predictable, orderly, and always well under her control. Last minute unexpected guests for a couple of days are definitely none of those things. Yep. Mrs. Simms was…. hmmmm… very organized. Very disciplined. Very uptight. And most of all… very religious. Picture Margaret Thatcher combined with the sternest Sunday School teacher you knew as a kid…. and you’d be darn close to Carolyn’s Mom. It’s hard for me to understand just how they can look so much alike, and yet both Carolyn and her sister Sandra are nothing like their Mom, personality-wise. Makes me wish I’d gotten a better chance to get to know Mr. Simms a little more during that visit, but he was gone most of the time on business that week.
Ummmm…. yeah. I just knew I had to reign my sweetie in a bit. “Whoa… wait a minute. You don’t need to prove anything to me. I don’t want you maybe making a big mistake on account of my feelings.” I leaned in and pinned her back to the couch looking her in the eyes while I tried to talk sense to her, “If you want to do this… and I’m not saying you shouldn’t… I want it to be because it feels right for you, not because you think I need it. At the very least, I think you ought to talk to Sandra first before doing anything.”
I hugged her and made her absolutely promise me to think about it some more before going ahead. I reminded her that as her “Girlfriend” I ached for that acceptance too, but as her “Best Friend” I definitely didn’t want her messing up her family over us… not if I had any say in the matter.
All that serious Drama had both of us pretty shaken by that point. Luckily it wasn’t hard to put things in a lighter mood with a little more… **ahem**… playful teasing… to remind her that it was our anniversary after-all. Yep…. Gotta keep your priorities in order…. 😉
The rest of that particular day went very relaxingly and nicely indeed. Once we got back to our daily routine, I half expected my sweetie to give up that whole crazy notion of dealing with her Mom once she had a bit longer to think about it… but nope. I got a call a week or so later from Sandra telling me that she and Carolyn had talked long and hard about just that very issue only a day or so afterwards. Sandra had much the same worries as me…. but tells me Carolyn has pretty much made up her mind this is actually going to happen. I’m a bit torn about it all, as Carolyn told her sister that it’s something she wants to do without having to bring me to share the moment. Doesn’t that just sound ominous? 😦
She’s trying to protect me… I know that in my heart… but I couldn’t bear the thought of her doing it alone. Thankfully, that’s not going to happen. Sandra says that she going to arrange things next Saturday so she can go along and have a visit with her parents too just to be there in case things don’t go well. She’s the best sister ever… and I’m so glad she cares so much, but I’m still a bit apprehensive and will be till it happens. (And by “apprehensive”, I mean practically scared to death…)
So… then…. add in my recent strong sense of “Seasonal Depression” and you can pretty much guess what kind of month it’s been. Goodness…. I’ll be so darn glad when Spring is finally here… assuming of course my Sweetie survives her “coming out”, that is. And…. if she does… it’ll be my turn next. I can’t very well let Carolyn do this without being just as willing to tell my own parents what their daughter has been up to romantically for these last several years. I’m not as scared that they’ll go all ballistic about it… not like I’m expecting Carolyn’s Mom to go… but it will change things between us all. Gone for Mom will be the idea that I’ll eventually find a nice Japanese guy to settle down with and give my her the grandchildren she’s sorta always expected. Now my dad…. I’m honestly not completely sure just how he’ll take things. They’ll probably both be somewhat confused and a little disappointed with me…. but I’m hoping that’s the worst that will happen. I honestly don’t even want to consider anything worse than that…..
Damn…. I just want the warm days of Spring to begin and things to lighten up for me. I really need that. I do, I do, I do…. Anyway…. thanks Gentle Visitors for letting me unload all this stuff, it’s probably not the most inspiring post of the season, but hopefully it’ll all work out and until next time, your Favorite Catgirl princess wishes you warmer days and happier times and “Meow, meow till then!!”