Another week slides by and it’s slowly… ever so slowly… trying to become Spring here. Last week’s exceptionally warm weather was apparently nothing but a tease for this lil’ Catgirl, as we’ve gone back to the chilly temperatures that are more normal for the month of March. Sigh….. well at least I got a few nice days to wear a light spring dress and get outside to enjoy the thaw….
As you can see,the next of my “Lil’ Kitten Classics” reviews is up… a quick one for 1964’s “The Flesh Eaters”, the one movie I actually got in trouble watching as a kid….. (but it was worth it…Hehehehe!!) I wanted to get another couple done this week, but work, the weird inaccessibility of both Delirium Vault and the Litterbox mid week, and other distractions prevented me from being timely….. So sorry for that, but I’ve managed to watch a couple of nice newer films, so if work slows this weekend, I’ll try to get a couple more started soon.
I could just keep rambling on and on, but you gentle visitors all know by now that Neko’s gonna make you “Read On” if ya wanna find out what else is going on in the life of your Favorite Catgirl Princess….. so let’s get to it!!
Work is pretty much the same for me these last couple of days…. although I got word that in about a week or so things should get complicated when our Kitchen Manager gets surgery done to remove a cyst from the rotator cuff in her right shoulder. Yep… it sounds nasty… and will result in her being unable to work for a couple of weeks. You know what that’s going to mean….. more work for poor lil’ me and the other cook as we try to cover her. Maybe we’ll get in some temp help to handle prep work, but much of her responsibilities will be impossible for just anyone to jump in and handle things…. (and guess who has both the seniority and knowledge to do most of it….) It’s not going to be a fun time……
Somehow though, I managed to get the best day of the whole week off this last Tuesday…. yep St. Patrick’s Day… and remember… Neko never… ever…. gets a holiday off!!! Even better… Carolyn also had that day free!! She came up to stay over on Monday night and we got to go out for some shopping, a nice leisurely walk in the park, a late afternoon luncheon, and generally spent an absolutely gorgeous day together. I truly needed that…. although I have to admit being out in public together did feel a bit strange…..
Our new relationship is still a novel experience for me…. and the little things that all new lovers do like casually holding hands or stealing a kiss feel…. well…. really awkward for me in public. So much for lil’ ol’ me thinking of myself as a fairly open minded modern woman….
At one point, Carolyn went to get us a couple of drinks as we sat enjoying ourselves on a open deck overlooking the river at a nice little Pub, and when she returned, she snuck up quietly behind me to give me a quick hug and a sweet kiss. I’m ashamed to say I actually shrank away from her a bit as I saw an older couple at a nearby table give us that sour look of utter disapproval. Carolyn felt me tense up and I thought she’d be really upset…. but she told me it was OK…. she said it would probably take some time for me to get comfortable with other people knowing about us being a couple. In fact…. she told me I would probably find it easier around total strangers than people we knew…. Usually you worry more about the opinions of family and friends than you do about some random stranger you may never even speak to. That’s why she was worried all this time about finally saying how she really felt about me…. and I’m her absolute best friend in the whole world.
I never thought of it that way… but she’s absolutely right. Here at the “Litterbox” I’m writing all this down where it can be read by any complete stranger who wanders by, but I haven’t even worked up the courage to tell anybody at work yet…… go figure. The very thought of it paralyzes me with an absolutely unreasoning panic.
Carolyn says even her own parents don’t know about any of her lesbian affairs…. only her sister Sandra has any idea, and that’s just because she accidentally walked in on Carolyn and her first girlfriend back in high school during an after school “study session”…. Thankfully Sandra is a good sister and has quietly kept Carolyn’s secret ever since. Carolyn says she’s never wanted to tell either of her parents just out of the fear they wouldn’t understand it. I guess I’m lucky she’s been through most all of this stuff already…. it’ll really help me in becoming more comfortable knowing she understands my hesitant embarrassment around her in public at times. I only know I love Carolyn so much…. I can’t escape that and it just makes me so darn angry at myself to feel even the least bit ashamed about simply showing it. Why does all this have to be so hard?
Also, later that night, while we snuggled all cozy in my bed, I mentioned my worries about our problems finding any real time to spend with each other. She laughed a bit then and tickled me unmercifully saying that after waiting 15 years or so for us to reach this stage, she was willing to accept a little bit of inconvenience in her life if she could finally be with me. She said I should stop being such a worry wart and just enjoy what we have for now. She also said she loved hearing that I wanted to be roommates again…. but moving in with her would raise the rent on her place well over what we currently pay for both our respective apartments put together. That… and she couldn’t have any pets in her apartment, so Goober’s lil’ fuzzy butt would be outta luck if we went that route. I told her we could work that out somehow… that maybe we could find another more affordable place for all of us if we looked. I said I knew her job was a lot more important than mine…. I’m just a cook after all, and there’s always a job somewhere for a good cook.
However…. Seems my lil’ sweetie has been secretly scheming behind my back. Part of her reason for coming to see me was that she had a job interview Wednesday afternoon at one of the nearby colleges. Seems there’s an opening for an assistant in their Archeology department and it’s not even that much of a pay cut for her if she actually gets offered the position. So….. she was hoping I wouldn’t mind if she ended up moving in with me sometime soon instead of me quitting my job and moving to the city to be with her. If that was OK with me that is…. (as if it wouldn’t be!!!)
I can’t believe it…. for once it seems this lil’ Catgirl is gonna catch a bit of luck!! I soooo hope that interview went well…. and she said it seemed to when she called me afterwards. It would be a dream come true to be able to stay right here in my own place, keep my job and all my friends and still be able come home every single night to Carolyn’s loving arms….. I’m gonna go crazy until Carolyn finally hears back from them with a decision…. I just know it!! AAAAUUUGGHHH!!!
Anyway…. that’s pretty much the “soap opera” of my life for this week…. Till next time, gentle visitors, “Meow, meow for now!!”