Well… your Favorite Catgirl Princess is back here at the Litterbox after a quick couple of days out of town. As promised, my review of “Truck” is ready to go and it’ll be posted up both here and over at Delirium Vault for you all to enjoy on Friday. See… sometimes I do actually finish my reviews on time…. Hehehehe!!
But I know you are all wondering about my visit with Carolyn and how things turned out. So… no more dilly-dallying then, let’s get right to that. Before I totally lose my nerve…
You already know I was so upset about not hearing from her last week that I almost took the first bus I could on Wednesday morning to go down and visit her. Only when I was at the Bus Depot did I realize that it would end up getting me there about 11 AM and giving me the whole day to lurk around Carolyn’s apartment building like some crazy stalker waiting for her to finish up at work and get home. I didn’t want to call ahead… I thought maybe I’d get some lame excuse from her about having something she just had to do that day… getting the old “We’ll get together soon enough, there’s no need to come and see me” song and dance… anything just to avoid seeing me right now. Calming down, I decided to take the Noon bus instead, get there late Wednesday afternoon and spend a couple hours shopping before going over to her place.
I had a plan… now all I had to do was put it into action. I ended up not sleeping particularly well Tuesday night. I was tossing and turning and getting up every couple hours as I tried to figure out exactly what I wanted to say… trying to anticipate Carolyn’s mood… wishing I knew what I could do to make things right again. Goober was little or no help… he just wanted me to settle down and stop waking his fuzzy lil’ butt up all the time. It was a miserable night.
The bus trip was long…. I don’t think it ever seemed that long before, but eventually I managed to get there. I tried to eat a little lunch at a bistro near the Depot, but I’m afraid I didn’t have much of an appetite. Shopping wasn’t any help either… so after what had to be the longest afternoon ever, I finally took a cab over to Carolyn’s apartment.
At least that part of my plan went well. I got there not too long after she got home from work. When she opened the door, I think I must have been last person she ever expected to see. She was embarrassed, half hiding behind the door and could barely even ask me why I was there… All I could think to answer was, “My best friend in the whole world is hurting worse than she’s ever been hurt and she needs me.”
She started crying… I started crying… she hugged me and we held on to each other for what seemed like forever before we could go inside.
I had guessed right.. She’s really been worried the whole week that I thought she was some sort of freak or something. That I found her disgusting and wouldn’t ever want to see her ever again. I took her hand and told her that wasn’t the case… that she had just surprised me with the suddenness of her confession and that we would always be friends. She started crying again… and I just didn’t know what else to do, so I hugged her again and then I kissed her. Just like that. As I think on it now, I guess I knew even then that I wanted to… just to see what it would be like. It was nice… it was soft, it was tender and meaningful and, yes, things just sort of went on from there….
Without getting all messy, let’s just say I spent the night… that things between us worked out… and that we talked afterward till morning finally came, cuddled up together just like we have any number of other nights before, but that I’ll never think of it exactly the way I used to.
So… there it is. I still have my best friend, and now it seems I’ve got a brand new lover too, all rolled into one warm, unexpectedly wonderful package. I guess Valentine’s Day worked out for this lil’ Catgirl after all. I just still can’t believe it…
So… now… does this make me a lesbian? Or bisexual? Or… what? I really don’t know. I do know that I enjoyed being with Carolyn, that I know I want to be with her again… and that it makes me feel all warm and special having her arms wrapped around me as she whispers in my ear that she loves being with me too. I know I haven’t felt that way about somebody for a long time. I guess that’s all that really matters….
Carolyn insisted that she wasn’t going to let me take the bus back home alone, so she took a Personal Day from work and drove us back to my place. I’m writing this while she’s out picking us up some dinner…. I can’t wait to cook us something yummy so we can have the “Valentine’s Day” meal we should have had the first time out.
I want to apologize for rambling on like this the last couple of weeks, but somehow writing all this down has been surprisingly relaxing for me. I felt that if I didn’t tell somebody about it, my poor little head would explode!! Maybe it’s because I finally feel comfy here at the Litterbox… comfortable enough to let my hair down a bit and just vent about stuff… who knows? Anyway, that’s enough about my crazy life for now…. let’s hope things get back to being boring again before I really get embarrassed and realize what a ditzy mistake I’ve made posting all this private and personal stuff for all the world to see.
Anyways… gentle visitors, that’s all for now. Till next time; “Meow, meow, for now!!”