Yep…. it’s my day off again, and time to let you peek just a wee bit into the life of your Favorite Catgirl Princess once more. For the most part, it’s been a quiet one this week…. almost too quiet after the drama I’ve had lately. Work is back to the usual levels for this time of year, and it seems we have stopped losing people left and right at the drop of a hat. The weather has improved, with the days getting warmer and signs of spring peeping out here and there. Movies continue to sneak into my mailbox along with some other interesting goodies… and that’s never a bad thing.
But I know….I know….. I’m being evasive about the one thing you probably read my “Diary” entries lately to find out about…… (Darn my silly decision to use my Blog to finally loosen up and share things about myself… )
You’ll just have to “Read On” to find out more of my secrets….
Carolyn….. It’s been well over a week since she made her little confession, and I haven’t heard from her at all in that entire time. That’s very unusual for us… we normally talk on the phone or exchange e-mails a couple of times a week. I’m thinking I really, really hurt her feelings by not reacting like she hoped I would to her. Even worse…. Samantha and the others at work know something is up as I’ve been unwilling to say anything to them about my “Valentine’s Date”…. beyond telling them it wasn’t exactly what I expected. Sam’s not the type to accept just that and not push for more details. I’ve had trouble sleeping….. I want to cry at times…. I’m just so conflicted about the situation…. What’s a Catgirl to do?
Sigh. Carolyn’s been my best friend in the whole world for a very long time. We were even roommates back in college the semester I had the break up with my fiance that precipitated my grades failing to the point that I lost my student aid and had to leave school. She was there for me then, when I was a crying miserable wreck over it all and stayed in touch with me even after I left school. I was never so happy as when her job offer out of college ended up bringing her to a city less than 2 hours away. By then, the temp job I had taken cooking to earn enough money for school had pretty much cemented my future in the restaurant industry. If things ever got truly horrible, I can’t think of anybody else I’d want to have to turn to. I trust and care for her more than anybody else in the whole wide world outside my family.
For goodness sake…. we’ve even slept together before. NO…. not THAT…… just sleeping. (Watch out…. I know where the “Leather Booties of Death are so don’t get any funny ideas…..)
It’s just that whenever she visits me or if I visit her overnight, it’s just usual that we sleep in the same bed….. My tiny apartment has a couch, but if Carolyn stays over I wouldn’t want her sleeping on that lumpy old thing when I’ve got a nice cozy double bed. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve woken up in the morning all cuddled up with her, my head on her shoulder, listening to her heartbeat, and smelling the scent of her hair…. and feeling safe and warm and just plain comfortable. She’s as close and dear to me as if she were my sister…. just thinking about this is making me get all teary and sad right now.
I know one thing. I’m not going to let her just drift away and think I don’t trust being around her anymore or let her think I feel she’s some sort of creepy freak. That said… since I’ve got the next couple days off, I’m going to take the bus down to visit her, and if I can we’ll work this out somehow.
Anyway, I might not check in here at the “Litterbox” for a day or so…. but I promise I’ll start my review of the new Korean thriller “Truck” this afternoon and hopefully, it’ll be up by this weekend when I get back.
Till then… wish me luck, and “Meow, meow, for now!!”